My friends are all asleep while I’m busy doing what I can do for my site. “If I Ain’t Got You” is playing on the background – ”…some people live for the fortune, some people live for the fame..for the power, live to play the game…”
Yeah, poignant truth. Some people really do worship money and fame over the more essential things in life. Good if they’re not doing anything at your expense. What if they are? Well, bad compensated with another bad will only make matters worse. It’s only going to make one’s trip to wherever so taxing. Carrying heavy burdens will never get you through, that I really believe.
I am placed in this space and time not to live for any power, nor fame but to make a life bearable to live with, elating though because it isn’t just one but more lives. :)
The mellifluous silence of the room riveted my energy to the screen of my laptop. The stillness of the moment made me sense every tiny bit of motion – the quiet tapping of my fingers on the keyboard, the hushing sound neighbors make in hauling things from all points of space, engulfed by the delightful scent of candle, the indistint growl of the fridge and water dispenser, and the rapid outflow of thoughts enveloped me.
Inadequate sleep, I felt giddy about ideas swarming my mind today. Great and minute ideas. What’s inevitable is that I should be mentally and physically prepared for tomorrow. I know it’s going to be one h_ll of a day! I’ve been dreading for this day not to come. Oh but i just have to continue swaying to the music she’s playing. I need to be able to survive this for a greater purpose.
A point: I wanna go home to the arms of the three men who make life worth living and challenges worth surpassing. I am looking forward to seeing that first smiles, hearing the first laughs, feeling the first hugs and kisses and enjoying the rythm of voices I have been longing for and dreaming about. Though faced with an indomitable fact of leaving again — be estranged from the familiar sights and sounds, I would give everything to have even just one day to be HOME. After all, this is what I am here for. 
