A Delightful Respite…

I had such a delightful experience today.  And it all happened during a  1-hour break from work.

I went to a nearby office where I usually have my lunch when it’s impossible for me and elce to go to lunch together.  Let’s call her ate Belen.    Tapping softly at the door, I heard her voice which was somehow like talking to someone on the phone.  Just within a minute or two, she opened the door.  Ate Belen’s demeanor somewhat seemed unusual.  She was quiet and busy about something very important, very different from her happy disposition.  Without making much hush, I sat myself on one of their comfy leather chairs and started to take my late lunch.  I was trying to savor the taste of my two pieces chicken wings and a leg, all fried, while eavesdropping.   I was a bit concerned.  After a while, her face suddenly lit up and the tension i sensed a while back eased off.

So i broke the silence and asked her if she’d taken her lunch which she gaily replied to.  Then I asked her if she’s going home for Christmas.  She said no.  Until I blurted out something that overwhelmed us both.  I asked her if marriage ever crossed her mind. Ah, now i know the trick!

Topics about this universal phenomenon can really break barriers huh?!

She said yes, “in His own time”.  She said she can’t push herself way into love as much as she wants to.   I told her that risks must be taken for love to happen.  Then she told me, “the Lord knows the desires of my heart, I know He will give him to me, in His own time, after all, I am not in a hurry”.

That struck me – she strongly believes in God’s miracles.  She continued on to tell me stories about a couple who came from different worlds, got estranged for years, and yet still ended up together and are happily married now.  On that note, I asked, “will the Lord still give me someone I deserve?”.  Without any hesitation, she looked straight into my eyes and said, “the Lord knows your heart, and in God’s eyes, there is no small or great sinner when it comes to blessings”.  She continued on to say, “just delight yourself in Him, love will find you”.

These are God’s little miracles everyday.  Moments like these may, to some, get unnoticed, but to me, God continues to touch and move me especially at times when I least expect Him to.  God never fails to perk up my ordinary days!

I had to pack up and leave, so I bade her goodbye and left.

Hearing the clicking sound from the lock of that door, I smiled and said in the silence of my heart, “Thank you Lord”.

An Endearing Expectation…

My friends are all asleep while I’m busy doing what I can do for my site.  “If I Ain’t Got You” is playing on the background – ”…some people live for the fortune, some people live for the fame..for the power, live to play the game…”

Yeah, poignant truth. Some people really do worship money and fame over the more essential things in life.  Good if they’re not doing anything at your expense. What if they are?  Well, bad compensated with another bad will only make matters worse.  It’s  only going to make one’s trip to wherever so taxing.  Carrying heavy burdens will never get you through, that I really believe.

I am placed in this space and time not to live for any power, nor fame but to make a life bearable to live with, elating though because it isn’t just one but more lives. :)

 The mellifluous silence of the room riveted my energy to the screen of my laptop.  The stillness of the moment made me sense every tiny bit of motion – the quiet tapping of my fingers on the keyboard, the hushing sound neighbors make in hauling things from all points of space, engulfed by the delightful scent of candle, the indistint growl of the fridge and water dispenser, and the rapid outflow of thoughts enveloped me.

Inadequate sleep, I felt giddy about ideas swarming my mind today. Great and minute ideas. What’s inevitable is that I should be mentally and physically prepared for tomorrow.  I know it’s going to be one h_ll of a day! I’ve been dreading for this day not to come. Oh but i just have to continue swaying to the music she’s playing. I need to be able to survive this for a greater purpose.

A point:  I wanna go home to the arms of the three men who make life worth living and challenges worth surpassing. I am looking forward to seeing that first smiles, hearing the first laughs, feeling the first hugs and kisses and enjoying the rythm of voices I have been longing for and dreaming about.  Though faced with an indomitable fact of leaving again — be estranged from the familiar sights and sounds, I would give everything to have even just one day to be HOME.  After all, this is what I am here for.